That the Bible exists at all is pretty much evidence of the fact that God is probably not going to speak to you directly. If God were speaking to each of us individually, there would be no need for the Bible at all.
Right up to the point where someone claimed to have a revelation, but lied.
Jim, you seem to be living in Amos 8:
Behold, the days come, saith the Lord GOD, that I will send a famine in the land, not a famine of bread, nor a thirst for water, but of hearing the words of the LORD: And they shall wander from sea to sea, and from the north even to the east, they shall run to and fro to seek the word of the LORD, and shall not find [it].
I recommend you move your spiritual HQ to the New Testament, where God was pleased to call His name "the Word."