I lost a close family member a year ago. Deep sorrow has crossed over to anger. I think about her, and I become very angry because she was gone. I feel anger toward God, toward her suffering, toward my dad being widowed so young. I'm angry that God did nothing. He sat by and didn't help her at all. How could he?
When I'm not angry I just feel down. That's the only word I can think of. Events, songs, or something else will trigger a memory and I become angry again. It's an incredibly strong emotion so I just quickly do something to distract myself. It happens multiple times per day.