I have sought help about my marriage with My Pastor, And other Christian friends.
And yet I still feel as if I'm Unable to get a clear picture on what to do!
I should start from the beginning and say a little bit about myself.
I have two beautiful kids that mean the world to me, other than the Lord they're My life!
I use to be a proud Husband. My wife whom I thought and bragged about was what kept me going thru a rough time in my Life, My company wasn't doing to great. My dad past suddenly on Sept. the 2nd 2010. I Thought i could make it through anything with some one like her beside me. I'm a strong and hardheaded man. I do what i know and believe is right, if i make a mistake I will do what i can to make fix it and i have no problem in seeing my own faults and apologizing for them.
Now onto my spiritual aspect, I'm a Dreamer I have had Dreams and visions from the Lord since i was young. they consist of anything from my personal life, to that of the state of the Church. dreams of demons, of hell! Dreams of The lord teaching me guiding me, giving me a word to speak, i've dreamed of heaven. I have seen Great beauty that my imagination can't describe, and i have seen horrible creatures and torture the likes i pray no man will have to endure!
So It was Christmas of 2010 When the Lord gave me a dream. In this dream i seen the hands of the Lord tilling the ground. He then placed a beautiful flower in this garden He had made.
Time past as the Lord worked and nurtured this flower, and I heard Him speak saying a good gardener does all he can to bring his creation not only to life, but to prosperity.
For the joy of the gardener is to watch his beautiful flowers grow and prosper.
then i saw another flower growing beside the lone flower.At first it was beautiful, it brought joy to the once lone flower. Then as quickly as the second flower came, it started to wither. Then it started to starve the first flower, stealing its food and water. until the first flower was getting weak and slowly dieing.
Then the weeds began to grow in the garden. and they to began to choke the first flower out.
Thats when I saw the hands of the lord reach in and pluck the second flower and all the weeds up by the root. Then He said to me would a good gardener leave such things in his garden to hurt his precious creation? then he said NO! he would pluck them up by the roots and cast them into a fire. and i saw him do just that!
then I was no longer in the garden but The voice of the Lord was with me and He said.
Your wife is hurting you, and unless she stops I will seperate Her from you.
A the end of january i found out my wife was having an affair. it had been going on since the first of november. She says she doesn't know why she did it, they guy just got out of prison and that he means nothing to her.
But i feel the sacred bond broken between us, I look at her not as my wife anymore but just another woman. i have no desire to make her happy or to even try
So i am here hoping for some sound godly advise. if i stay and make it work will it get better? or has the Lord put us assundered?