My husband cheated on me 6 months ago while I as 9 months pregnant. Literally one week before our daughter was born. He had sex with a girl 10 years younger than him (he is 30). It was a girl he worked with.
I was (and still am) very hurt by this. I actually found out about it the DAY it happened. So imagine the pain I felt being huge and pregnant knowing that my husband had just had sex with a strange girl 3 hours earlier.
I struggled with my hurt and depression for months on end. We fought everyday. I cried everyday. He said he was sorry and wanted to be with me. I didn't know what to do. I had a newborn (we also have an older child) and was just very stressed out.
During this time, I would get random emails from his coworkers saying that he was always talking about getting with other women. He would talk about womens breasts and bums. Tried to get with this girls twin sister first. Tried to get with other employees. There is really no telling how many times he cheated, even though he claims it was only this ONE day/time.
One day - about 7 weeks ago - my husband started picking up his bible. He asked me to go to church with him. This was weird for him because he had never lived a christian life. It the midst of all of this pain and hurt, its like God just came into our lives.
Since committing our lives to Christ, our marriage has done much better. I do feel like maybe we can work this out, especially considering that we were not christians at the time that this happened. I feel like I should give our marriage another chance, now that God is involved in it.
Even with God in my life, I am still struggling with the hurt and pain. I don't understand how he could do this to me while I was pregnant with his child. Images of them together pop up in my head ALL THE TIME, especially during sex. I need help and i don't know who to turn to. None of my close girlfriends are christians and my friends at church seem too new to spill all of this to. Any advice?
So far, we are almost finished with the Love Dare. book. just fyi.