married (or not),
Let me ask you a question: you say you love this man, but in 14 paragraphs, you say *nothing* that shows any real affection/admiration for him, *nor* any reason why you should stay with him (other than your stating, "I love this man").
Try re-reading your post as if you were a third party--it may help you to see things in perspective.
Moreover, as a Christian, I'm sure you're aware that "living in sin" is not a good choice, anyway. Please pray about this. Most women who accept this kind of "live-in" arrangement (and note well: it is nearly ALWAYS the man who dictates this arrangement, despite all the feminist rhetoric calling it a "liberated" choice for a woman) do so because they have doubts about their own self-worth, and feel that having a man will somehow "validate" them. On the other hand, living in Christ, getting to know Him and striving to do things His way makes us feel both loved and self-assured (whether we're men or women, married or not). Paradoxically, this makes us both more independent, *and* more attractive to the kind of person you really want to marry!