I have certainly questioned that as well (her true commitment to God). Since I was deceived and betrayed and see a somewhat different person now in some of our interactions. It shows me some dishonesty that is not very attractive. I realize there is little to no hope for saving my marriage, but my path is the same either way - to honor God in my words, thoughts, actions. I am technically still married and will honor and respect her. Of course, I would honor and respect anyone I suppose, but I mean as a spouse. I really appreciate all of this input and welcome more. It is very enlightening to see the views, many I have not considered. Thank you all again for the words of advice. By the way, I start my divorce care support group tomorrow and am very excited about that, then faith based counseling on Thursday. should be a great week of continued healing.