God is perfect so when you go into God's light you'll be able to see the truth of you. This is good. The truth of you is what you'll take to God one day. You pray to be the best you can be humanly, don’t you? Yes there are down days. But you’re there. You’re going to church, you’re looking in the right direction and you’re on the path. With a perfect God to aspire to, of course you’re going to be…..human. But your there, you believe, you’re after God’s righteousness. And that’s all it takes. Not what you do for God’s acceptance, but your faith. And you have that faith.
While you are taking on the steep hills and adjustments of seeing yourself in God’s light again, of seeing yourself in the heavenly realm but with your current humanly bruises and scars from the general surroundings of the lightless world, maybe listen to this talk if you can find it on the internet somewhere. Its about if you were in heaven now, your aches and pains and sufferings would be medals of faithfulness.
The talks may have been called The blessing of suffering but maybe it is this link to The blessing of tears.
And insightforliving has a talk on now too, about picking up from nothing, what it takes, what to expect, now its done. Listen a few times, its neat.