Thank you both. I'm sorry that I was touchy. I'm just embarrassed by the situation. I'm embarrassed that I even have these feelings. Thanks again for your thoughts. Honestly, I really do appreciate it. I'm sorry I deleted the original post, I was embarrassed.
Also, I'm not having sex with anyone other than my wife, but I do appreciate the warning. I can't really cut ties.... been dealing with this person for years, literally.... even her family loves me. If I just said get lost, it'd actually be kinda hurtful. I honestly think I can overcome this with God.
One of the first things I need to do, besides continuing to pray (and, seeking advice, like what I've done here), is to STOP trying to spend time with her. I mean, outside of appointments. I've been doing that, I'm ashamed. And, she's given me reason to. The end of an appointment, "I can stay longer, but if you gotta go, that's cool, see you next time," .... "I have no where to be right now" and boom, there we are hanging out for no reason. Happened a few times. That has to stop.