G'day, apparently I have to unlearn and relearn
So these first 3 weeks going back to church I noticed a girl who I've seen around, she's a year ahead of me in school. The first day I went back, she was one of the only ones who came and spoke and welcomed me. Each time I went she would always come about and talk more to me just about things, my kid, my home, recent events, that sort of stuff. She said she heard I was pretty good at school and she wanted help tutoring that Wednesday with some stuff.
Well that night came about and after helping her get some subjects, we started talking about life again. She's smarter than most kids around these parts, we were talking about all sorts and by the end of the night we ended up making out. Yesterday at church she came over and sat next to me and before I left that night she asked if we could have a date after school one Friday if I didn't have work. She actually said that she was interested in me before but she thought I was gay - to her credit, I've been with guys in the past, I wear my hair long and my favourite colour is purple so I'm no exactly a masculine archetype - but that I had a kid, which she is totes cool with, kinds snuffed that perception and she thought that me moving out of my parents and coming back to church thought showed my true colours, whatever she thinks those are.
The thing is I don't think I am what she thinks I am. I mean she's saving herself for marriage, I missed that train with 5 different people and none of them were more than casual things with otherwise friends. I don't know where to start with a relationship like this. I don't have the slightest clue about relationships on this scale and seeing (not here, other forums) I go into hours long flame wars on the internet I don't exactly thing I have the emotional maturity to work this out, if the past inability to keep it in my pants didn't give it away. I feel different about her, but I don't even know if this is what I need right now. I don't know where to go if this ends up working out or how I should conduct myself in "the right way".
Knowing what she thinks of me makes me feel like an impostor.