(Sent this to you on IM but can't tell if it went through),
Carwhisper, I can understand your plight, brother. I agree with a lot of your post here. Especially when you said we have a need for human interaction. However, we must give our life to God, and not continue to make our story our own. Let God make our story. You feel me? Let Him lead your life. Seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and these things will be given unto thee. Maybe I'm off by a word or two, but you know. And giving your life to God can take time. You have to trust Him tho. See, he understands because he loves us. He is rather patient with us. He knows we are still thinking on our own most of the time. That's what I belive he sees in me anyway. And since we all share many common issues, I see it in others. Ok, back to the point. I have read your posts over the last year or so, and though you have been opposed and given lots of advice by loving people of God, you have to seek God for yourself my friend. You have a special relationship with Him that should be explored. And you already have enough going on in your life, based on your posts. I'm going to stop here, you can do all things through Christ who will give you strength.