Angeleyes, you ask too many good questions.
I don't know what to do. So, I'm doing nothing about anything right now.
I have told David several times my heart just isn't into this, or that I don't appreciate all of the entertainment indulgence. I like "home". I like coming home after work and staying there. I like cooking dinner at home. I like eating at home. I like being home!!
I love to play games-cards, dominoes, all kinds of board games, even silly ones. To sit at my kitchen table, listening to the stereo, playing silly games at the table with a friend is an awesome time well spent. He doesn't like to play games. He likes to watch sports on TV, but goes to as many games as possible. He likes NASCAR, goes to Talladega, Kansas City, Atlanta, Texas, and some place in Tennessee. Goes to the Hornets games here. Kansas City and Dallas for football and baseball. Oh yeah, Las Vegas for NASCAR and basketball. Likes OU football, baseball and basketball. I like all those sports, but I don't see the need to go to all those places. He's going to the Fiesta Bowl Jan 1st. Well, he's leaving Friday the 29th and coming back Wednesday the 3rd. They're also going to Las Vegas. No interest to me. I like soccer, but he doesn't. He's really a nice, sweet, kind guy. He's been divorced for 12 years. Says he started dating again 2 years ago when his son left for college. He tells me I should start living for me since I have been a mom since I was 16. He says I keep sitting at home like my 18 year old is going to show up at my door any minute to come back home and it's not going to happen. I do believe he has that part of me figured out. I do keep thinking my son will come back home, but I know he won't, he didn't like my rules. David wants me to go on a cruise. He wants me to go away for a weekend, separate rooms, no "hanky-panky" (he called it that!!) to someplace in Arkansas. He wants me to go to some expensive spa here and have all kinds of stuff done to me. That's just not me.
Yes, I do not like his smoking. My friend who I agreed to do this challenge for says she likes me not being alone now. She hopes something happens between David and me. She says she has slipped 3 times and had 1 cigarette each time since December 1st. for that part of this challenge, I am very thankful she is doing so good. I told David my friend is trying to quit and he said that's the only bad thing he can't get a grip on. He says he likes to have a cigarette once in awhile, especially after a good (I almost freaked out here!!!) meal. He says he smokes about 1 pack, but sometimes 2 packs a week. That's not really that bad. But, deep down, I don't want to even deal with 1 cigarette a week from someone. I feel like I'm being really shallow here. I'm not a great catch like it seems like I think I am. At night, when I'm trying to do my Bible study, all of a sudden, something will pop into my thoughts about how I should be thankful I even have someone who is so nice even showing an interest in me. This guy is just plain nice. That's why I'm not doing anything that I really want to. I really want to tell him I'm not interested, but I made a pledge I cannot say those words again until March 1st!!!
I was pm'd by someone about my situation. I told them I'd get back to them when I got all my thoughts together. I wonder when that will be? March 1st?
Janine, I should have listened to my mom. She didn't approve of either person I married.
Chemistry-hmmm, I've never had a problem with chemistry. I don't let anything even begin to happen if I don't think there's some chemistry going on or willing to see if there could be. Though, I have been just friends with someone and then the more I got to know them and be around them, then there'd be feelings that weren't there before that were there later. But I've never started dating someone where there was no chemistry or hopes of chemistry.
Oh well, I've got some searching to do. Goodnight!!