“Trusting Vs. Trusting”
Proverbs 3:5 NLT
Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding.
Sunday morning before last, I found myself waking up to a very abnormal side pain. I’ve had side pains before, but this did not feel at all like any that I’ve had before, especially that it started in the middle of the night. That Sunday, I went from an Urgent Care visit to the ER awaiting the removal of my appendix because I had early appendicitis. I still remember the shock feeling that came over me when the doctor called to say the CT scan confirmed it was appendicitis and that I needed to head to the ER to get ready for surgery.
As I waited through the early afternoon, I was being tested in various ways and prepped for my surgery. What I most appreciated is that I was being prepared mentally for what was about to happen. I didn’t know any of the people taking care of me, but I just fell into a “trust” feeling when I was being told that I would be taken great care of and that it would most likely be a very successful surgery. I was still nervous, but after they did all they could to prepare me mentally, it put me at ease knowing I would be sedated and then wake up without an appendix hurting.
After I woke up and have continued my days of healing up to now, I have been thinking everyday about the whole idea of trusting that day. I was not only realizing how much I put all my trust in what the medical personnel was doing that day to tend to my care, but I couldn’t help to think about how I so often do not trust in God as much as He promises to take care of my life. That thought has stuck with me and got me thinking a lot.
As I mentioned before, I tend to feel more at ease and trust more when things are explained to me and I can understand what I’m about to experience. Being prepared does a great deal for me. However, God does not always work this way. He so often does not explain things to us and, instead, asks us to completely trust in Him when things do not make sense and when we don’t understand things at all.
I trusted in the medical personnel because I was mentally prepared beforehand, but my trust should always ultimately be in God Who always provides and takes care of me. He often asks us to completely trust in Him when we have no idea what is ahead and what we are about to experience. That can cause some major anxiety!
My challenge for all of us is to consider how much we trust God in situations that are really challenging and in which we are totally blind to what might be ahead. Do we trust God no matter what and not depend on our understanding? Trusting in Him is everything.