So, I am 19 and in college. No this isn't a troll post or anything of the sorts. My entire life I have been trying to come to terms with this fat fetish. I am only attracted to bigger guys. Basically the fetishy part is when the guy puts on weight. Not to wear they are morbidly obese or anything but just kinda chubby and they are still healthy. My entire life I feel like God hates me for having this fetish but, now i'm starting to question this. Is it truly a sin? I've been praying about this for months now and still don't know that answer.
I still feel feel horrible though. I am a proud Christian and feel like I am going to hell if I ever engage in this fetish at all. The reason I'm confused about this is because even though this is a strange fetish it is my only way I can sexually bond with a man and be intimate. Do you think this fetish is a sin or am I overthinking all of this. Any response is appreciated, Thank you.