I remember all to clearly when things looked really bleak for yours truly.
All the while God had things worked out & had been busy getting things ready for me to have one of the best times of my life.
Even providing for Christmas & honeymoon & wedding to the finest women I have ever met.
God even provided a friend to give me a hug.
During that time all I really did was apologize with real remorse over past choices. I truly wished I had done better by Him than what I had done. I still do.
Maybe if I find just a touch of favor in his eyes He will grant me one more request. Either way its His choice what becomes of me.
"No matter my lot,
Thou hast taught me to say,
'Even so, it is well with my soul'. "