Hi everyone, I am a former Penescostal women and I am sad I can't attend anymore at this church, it's just too far for me. I will be back soon though.
So my question is this, I was baptized there in the Holy Spirit and felt God's hand on me, and boy was it powerful. Upon being lifted up and sitting there receiving the spirit, I had people around me praying in tongues, watching the pastor was holding the bible and praying as well. Seconds after I started to slightly pray in tongues and then I noticed that the prayer got louder, along with their tongues. Of course, I noticed that my tongue didn't sound like theirs, it felt as if my tongue wasn't as advanced or at their level, so I just tried to remember what my mom taught me and how I was raised around heavy tongue. Well, next time I attended church there I went up to the podium to pray in tongues with my mom, and this lady walks up to me who I recongnize now as the leader of the church, and she tells me that I have to leave the podium and go sit down. She asked me if I knew how to pray in tongues, and in so many words she stated I wasn't doing it right. I beleived her and I was traumatized but hid it very well and especially from my mother.
I read in the bible more recently about praying in tongues and that everyone had a different tongue from a different nation. I beleive it's Acts 2. Now my question is, did she have any right to kick me off the podium where everyone was praying? Also, was she judging me? She made me feel less then.
Much later I came back to that church, about 14 years later or so, and I went up to the podium to pray in tongues and the lead usher came up to me while in the midst of praying in tongues and he was also, but he put his hand out and layed his hand upon my forehead to cast a demon out. Wow. That was shocking but God was with me and Jesus explained to me that this man is trying to cast something out of you that's not there. He continued to pray in tongues loudly and rapdily, and I was more soft spoken and I had my hands raised in glory, even the pastor looked at me, but I think God confirmed with him at that moment that I was God's child so he left me alone, but this other man who layed his hand on me wouldn't leave me alone so I let him be. God comforted me and said to me follow me, not him, I am your God and I will show you how to pray in tongues.
I am healed of this now but for the longest time felt judged by others at this church cause my tongue didn't sound exactly like theirs.