I am up another night. I am reaching out. I am really hurting. This is so hard. I have visited several churches in my area and have never received the support I need. I am angry, frustrated, sad, I just feel sick. I just dont feel like things are getting much better. My mom, the only person I confided in is gone. I had to watch her die and I am tormented with those images almost everyday. If there is anyone out there that is really of God, not satan because I seem to keep running into that type especially in the churches in my area. I need prayer, deliverance, someone that is annointed with gifts of the spirit. I just need something real in my life. I feel like I am always being lied to. I feel now that the enemy is trying to play tricks with my mind in my weekend state. I just need someone to talk to. Can someone please help me? Private message me if so.