The more awake I am, the more aware I become of the evil in the world, the more I feel spiritually attacked. I don't know if it is demons or not. But knowing what I know about how monstrous some people can be... the ones who destroy entire countries from within... who pretend to be shepherds but lead only to damnation... I can not write the existence of demons off.
Most of the people I'm referring to are psychopaths, puppets, or both. I'm sure most of them were abused when they were young. So evil perpetuates evil by destroying innocence, identity, and distancing people from God. Yet how did all of this even start to begin with? Is it demonic?
Of course I've always known bad things happen. But it's so much more widespread than I could have ever believed. Overt acts of cruelty are just part of it. The environment created to increase fighting, abuse, suicide, and all other manner of evil is the other half of the story. It stems from a culture of alcohol, drugs, promiscuity, moral relativism, and the destruction of the family being promoted by news, media, "advocates", governments, etc.
It makes me afraid to know how much darkness is out there. That it can persist and grow and cause untold suffering. I want to work with God to help bring light but I keep getting paranoid that evil forces will try to stop me.