well.. see.. the turned on part.. in a way I do like it.
Good!
but I also hate the fact that I like it because I have a feeling that getting turned on will make me want to go farther. I think I may have been the one that caused that fear...
OK I get that. BTW, God DESIGNED that drive to make you "want to go farther." But I can see how that can be scarey.
yes. my parents know.
Good!
they suggested I get an understanding girlfriend and just go very slowly (holding hands, giving gifts, etc) they said maybe if I find a girl that I really like,
they said maybe if I find a girl I really like, I will feel differently I meant to say.
They are right but such a person may be difficult to find.
Going slow is good esp at your age.
which there is actually one that makes my heart race. shes my closest friend, but she has told me before that she likes me. I would do anything for her, and I think my parents are right. I want to please her, so maybe I would kiss her if she wanted. what do you think of this idea? I feel confident around her and I kinda do like it when when hugs me and I get a little turned on.
Ok - that sounds like a possibility. But at your age, it may be that ANY female may make your heart race as that is a hormonal response as it does trigger arousal. So be aware of that.
and about being turned on, I guess I get scared because I feel dirty
And that is a problem. This is what I was talking about in an earlier post. Thinking that sex or arousal and release is "dirty" is a lie from the devil. God made it to be a blessing for marriage.
You are a teen aged guy. You will get erections. You will experience an INTENSE need to release. IT is a function of the hormones in your body which are finishing up the job of physically maturing you. Your voice drops. You start to grow hair on your face and other places. Your muscles get larger. Your bones thicken. And your male parts finish growing up too.
None of that is "dirty" but is part of the way God designed physical maturity to happen.
