B.H., You said,
"Also, I must admit I am rather frustrated that no one has refuted me and that so few people have tried. I am not trying to brag (I could meet a preacher here tomorrow who takes me to the woodshed on the God issue) but in fact wish to state it really and truly hurts me that no one has seriously tried to prove me wrong for the most part. And this is supposed to be the grace filled and loving CoC/DoC/CC website. with tears."
B.H., I believe Lee told you in the beginning that the purpose of GCM board was to build up and edify the faith of believers, not to serve as place for debating the existance of God or tearing down our faith. Here is Lee's quote to you from another thread...
"But let me say right now that I prefer that this discussion dissolves. Grace Centered has been and will continue to be a safe haven for faith. Not a place for the Bible to be placed on trial. There are plenty of places on the Internet for that. Grace Centered is simply not one of those places."
I think he made it pretty clear that GCM is not a place where anyone is going to debate you or try to "prove you wrong". This IS a grace-filled site; that is why from the beginning you were welcomed and treated kindly. People treated you with respect even when they disagreed with you. I am not sure what your definition of "grace-filled" is, but debate and needless contention is not in the definition. As for "proving you wrong", no one is ever going to do that for you, BH, not ever. Either you choose to believe in God and Jesus or you don't. It's that simple. I might see something as the answer to prayer, and you might see it as "coincidence". It's up to the individual how life is perceived.
As for Lee's comment, I am very glad that this board has been a safe haven for my faith. My faith is not strong and I stuggle with it all the time. But the difference is that I DO believe, and I want to know Jesus as my Lord, so I keep searching to build that relationship with Him. The fact that my faith is weak does not mean that God is any less real. I am aware that there are issues in my life that make up who I am and how I relate to God. My struggle is not that I do not believe in God, but that my own bad experiences sometimes hinder me from sharing the life and joy He has offered me.
In any event, this board is very special to me. I do not post often, but I read every day. It helps my faith to grow by reading about the faith of others and how they overcome obstacles. However, when I read posts that argue the existence of God, or cast doubts on the validity of the Bible, it hurts me spiritually and chips away at my faith. I do not need that in my spiritual life as I encounter enough of it in the day to day world. I expect a Christian board to be a place where I can come and spiritually rest from all that confusion. The fact that other Christians on the GCM board do not "try to prove you wrong" at the expense of weaker Christians like myself is because they DO have "grace" toward you...and toward me.
BTW, my husband used to be an atheist for many years. For reasons I won't go into, he is now a deist but not a Christian. In the many years of our marriage, he has never tried to debate me out of my faith, but always encouraged me to follow the path that gave me peace. I think that is a good attitude for atheists to have toward believers.