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| Background info on me | June 23, 2009, 01:11:18 PM | I have been married 14 years. This is my first marriage and my husbands second. My Husband has 2 daughters one from his first marriage 24years old and one from a previous live in relationship 17years old. We have twin preteen daughters and I have a teenage son that live with me.
I married in a back slidden state I was saved as a young teen and enticed away from the lord because of my own selfish desires Lived with a man out of wed lock and had my son. I also live with my husband before we married.
A few years after we were married I recommitted my life to Christ. My husband was not saved when we married. He claimed salvation about 8 years ago although i am uncertain of the truth of that.
From the beginning of our relationship he has lied, betrayed, manipulated, and deceived me. I always wanted the marriage to work and for him to be a godly man so i would forgive his indiscretions and hope and pray for change.
As our marriage progressed through the first years our relationship my husband verbally and physically abused my son and caused extream spiritual damage to him. My son is very strong willed and this would cause extream conflict in our house. Me as the mother protector and my husband the evil bully.
This has been a constant and a huge flash point in our marriage.
Within the last year the relationship between them i have had to call police because my husband has been intent on provoking my son to lash out psychically throwing and breaking my sons things saying to him "go ahead just try to hit me " egging him on.
As the years have gone by my husband has grown more and more emotionally and verbally abusive, raging and throwing temper tantrums, threading divorce, telling me to get out, calling us horrible things, mocking my walk with Christ, ect.
The unfaithfulness and pornography has been a constant throughout our entire relationship. He has not come home from work until the next day, I have found sexually charged texts between him and coworkers, voicemails from buddies says the girls are meeting them here or there, singles magazines, obviously pornographic magazines and videos hidden around the house, secret webmail accounts, subscription's to adult singles websites, emails pursuing sexual relationships on line, sending naked photos of himself to people on line, describing in detail to someone on line how he cheated on me, craigslist solicitation including posting his own, answering ads, and direct solicitation with money missing from the account on the days of solicitation.
He of course says hes sorry but he has never been unfaithful.
Since the separation he has claimed he is actively in a accountability group and sees a counselor. He rages at me at me every other day insisting reconciliation and then when i say not now he resorts to verbal and emotional abuse toward me.
Anyway there is so much more i will have to finish later |
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