musician_for_God...congrats on your progress. And boo to the virus! Leave now in the name of Jesus!
Thanks! I'm actually feeling a lot better now. While I do believe the virus is still technically present in my throat, it has been slowly (very
slowly) but surely dwindling away, and now it is to the point of not inhibiting my energy level at all.
So, I am now gently coaxing my system back into diet control mode. I believe the Lord was not pleased with my attempts to bulk up in muscle -- I'm not preaching, it's just a personal belief about what I felt from Him during the virus. But I do not feel He has any objection to my reducing my weight to a more convenient level (my jeans are straining, and I'm tired of feeling heavy on my feet all the time).
As well as the weight loss itself, I enjoy the feeling of responsibility and maturity from "holding back" from weight-gaining levels of daily fat and calorie intake. It's somewhat biblical, I feel. It feels anti-gluttonous. I think healthy restraint of one's appetites is a general Christian principle. And my body always feels more "still" or "at peace" once I've gotten used to taking in less calories.
Again, since I still have tiny signs of the virus, I am reducing my diet very slowly and carefully
, so as not to shock my system while it's still fighting what little remains of the virus. I've gained 5 pounds since late January while not paying attention to what I eat, and while that is not bad at all, I do want to level off and then start in the other direction -- and to be able to button my jeans comfortably.
(Wow, I wish the emoticons on this website covered all the most basic human emotions. The above is the closest one I could find to embarrassment. This one looks embarrassed, but means "sick":