there r people having problem wth blasphemous thoughts against God eventually towards the Holy Spirit. I am one of those people, i just cldn't control the thoughts one day they were towards the Holy Spirit. Immediately i felt something droping on my head and believe u me my life has been a struggle ever since till to this day. I feel disconected to God, I am so hopeless. I go to church and wish so much to feel God's presence it doesnt happen. The only thing i have it is His word, i belive every single thing it says, i believe that Jesus came here on earth to die for my sins, I believe that God raised Him from the dead. I believe He is sitted at the right hand of God interceding and pleading wth Him for us. I still go to church, i read my bible, pray, confess the word of God but the is no electricity inside me, it sounds as if it is just words. Sometimes i feel like God doesnt love me but i know it is a lie for He has loved me with an everlasting love(Jer 31:2) .I am scared i might have commited this sin which is eternal, but i know that principalities, angels, death,life will never separate me from His love but i don't have the assurence the of salvation. I feel so empty and dry in the inside. I am married, 33 yrs old and bcos of how i feel and what i think abt the possibility of having commited this sin, i don't have any desire whatsoever to have kids. i feel a person is more safe not to be born at all bcos in this world there are so many trials and tribulations, it hurts, it frustrates, at times i wish i was never born, if it was possible i wld dismis myself. But He is God, sitted in His throne. Before Him no God was formed nor there shall be any other God after Him. Sometimes I become so scared of God. Is this life guys ?
: tumza Tue Feb 24, 2009 - 00:46:23
i just cldn't control the thoughts one day they were towards the Holy Spirit.
The word blasphemy is usually used in reference to an action or words spoken to others. I can't speak for God, but I don't believe you would be excluded from heaven for those thoughts.
I think those who are truly permanently excluded from heaven are done so by having their hearts hardened by God so that they will not have faith in Him. The king of Egypt wouldn't let the Israelites free...you know the story of the plagues. Anyway, the bible says that God hardened the kings heart. That does NOT mean the king thought to himself "Oh, I wish I could obey God. If only he hadn't hardened my heart and made me now unable to obey." God hardened the kings heart, and the king would not have even wanted to obey God. As far as those people who are permanently excluded from heaven. It would seem to me that if this isn't true then the bible would be contradicting itself. Someone can't have true faith in God and be banned from heaven. So the only way I see it to be consistent is that the people who have blasphemed against the Holy Spirit will not even want to love God...So I think you're safe there.
As far as the inability to feel connected with God, that is probably a more important issue. It may be a warning sign that you need to change something. Or maybe you don't know what to change (assuming I'm right about it being a warning sign.) I don't have much for advice their. I might suggest being more personally involved with helping others, as opposed to giving money. Giving money is of course good, but it doesn't allow your charitable contribution to felt by you personally. If instead you did charity in which you personally got involved you might feel better. (Again, this is only a suggestion. I don't know for sure what's best.)
I don't have blasphemous thoughts against God. But I do against many of the people who claim to represent Him.
the definitions I saw for blasphemy were to do a verbal cursing (equating with evil or despising of) of the Holy Spirit that comes from the heart- I think IMO this is when it is done as a choice from a darkened heart who knows and believes in Him yet turns their heart from and then their words on Him maliciously.
I don't feel that it is just being angry at God at some point or having a negative thought at times (we all do that), I think like fading ambition said that it is when one believes and knows the truth yet chooses to harden their heart and then curse God with their tongue- the Bible says "the power of life and death is in the tongue" and it is when we purposely choose to use our tongues for evil- not when we slip in an emotional moment without our hearts following. Just MO but I don't think you need to worry if you have had a bad thought at time, like I said there are many who do that- if your heart is true to God and you love Him and have repented for these things then He is faithful to forgive us!
As for not feeling Him moving within you, I think the best thing for you to do is get alone with Him ask for forgiveness for anything you feel you may have sinned in and tell Him/ask the Holy Spirit to come into you and fill you- ask Him to let you feel Him moving in your heart and spirit and give up any guilt that you may be placing upon yourself for being an imperfect human- because you are not alone in this!!!!!
HE LOVES YOU SO CAST ALL YOUR CARES UPON HIM FOR HE CARES FOR YOU!
tumza,
this was on my word of the day desktop on my computer this morning and I think it is very good timing for you (I can apply it to my life at this time as well)- you are not alone!:
Jeremiah 29: 11-13
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
: tumza Tue Feb 24, 2009 - 00:46:23
there r people having problem wth blasphemous thoughts against God eventually towards the Holy Spirit. I am one of those people, i just cldn't control the thoughts one day they were towards the Holy Spirit. Immediately i felt something droping on my head and believe u me my life has been a struggle ever since till to this day. I feel disconected to God, I am so hopeless. I go to church and wish so much to feel God's presence it doesnt happen. The only thing i have it is His word, i belive every single thing it says, i believe that Jesus came here on earth to die for my sins, I believe that God raised Him from the dead. I believe He is sitted at the right hand of God interceding and pleading wth Him for us. I still go to church, i read my bible, pray, confess the word of God but the is no electricity inside me, it sounds as if it is just words. Sometimes i feel like God doesnt love me but i know it is a lie for He has loved me with an everlasting love(Jer 31:2) .I am scared i might have commited this sin which is eternal, but i know that principalities, angels, death,life will never separate me from His love but i don't have the assurence the of salvation. I feel so empty and dry in the inside. I am married, 33 yrs old and bcos of how i feel and what i think abt the possibility of having commited this sin, i don't have any desire whatsoever to have kids. i feel a person is more safe not to be born at all bcos in this world there are so many trials and tribulations, it hurts, it frustrates, at times i wish i was never born, if it was possible i wld dismis myself. But He is God, sitted in His throne. Before Him no God was formed nor there shall be any other God after Him. Sometimes I become so scared of God. Is this life guys ?
Please listen to the mp3 sermon about unpardonable sin in the last post.
http://www.gracecentered.com/christian_forums/index.php/topic,32686.0.html