I was once a Bi-polar, double-minded female then God put my mind together for the first time in my life. I only had clear thought patterns and clear goals in my mind. I read the Bible every morning before I ate or took my meds. God had helped me develop a routine that got me up, washed, dressed, pills set-out, Bible read, breakfast done, and my day's tasks organized before I opened my curtains. None of this was in my nature, but God got me there; moreover, the Holy Spirit kept me so energized that I felt like people talk about being "high on speed" is described; except I calmly steadfastly got everything accomplished.
Then I knowingly let myself get led into a sinful past-time.
Sunday I heard a T.V. Rabbi speak about the bleak vision of the future Satan sells us, it a future that has not had God inserted or invited into. I received that into my heart and started thinking about how to get God back into my vision of the future.
I have been craving that energized, passionate, organized existence again. Last night I had decided to start practicing towards that routine again while doing a "no-meat" fast, hoping God would meet me there. My intent was to start praying for my baby brother's marriage.
This morning my dear prayer-warrior mother talked about how the church has started a 21 day fast. I asked her to agree with me that we would pray every day for my sis-in-law.
I need someone to be my journey partner. I hope I have not posted this to the wrong place. I need some who can help me with Biblical references to get on track. Please pray for me.