I had a conversion experience in 1989 where water flowed from my belly and I was soaked in heavenly glory, I was 25 and my husband had been missing for two years (he was never found and the coroner ruled it a homicide with circumstances of foul play in 2010). I went to bible college for nearly three years because I wanted to understand all I had believed and the subject of faith had become a strong interest in my life. My faith had replaced a life of drug addiction and crime and I had a range of behaviours that had to be addressed and changed, relationships to be healed and new routines to be made. My prayer life lacked depth and I fell. I had twelve years of darkness (from 1992 to 2004) where I got back into drugs and I was convinced God didn't want to talk to me again and that I had sinned willfully and there was no longer a sacrifice for my sins (Hebrews) but God gave me mercy through His grace and He started to communicate with me once again. Recently I have taken up spiritual direction where I had to pray around a scripture for an hour each day and write about it and in the evening do an examine. This has deepened my relationship with God and is the best thing I have ever done, apart for the bible study I did for the three years after my conversion. Praying has placed me in a position where I am able to examine myself more objectively in terms of my motivations and intentions, it has also moved God to pour new oil into me. I have been clean for nearly 11 and a half years The Christian walk is a constant struggle because the self is deceitful and the devil and world cunning. Nice to meet you.
Welcome to Grace Centered, Giulia.
Hope your time here is fruitful for everyone. Especially you.
Continued blessings.
Great testimony, welcome here. ::smile::