Please read-porn topic-promises broken

[Storm]

My wife just went through a life threatning illness, and it was a very trying time for us...It really messed me up, and the Lord thankfully brought her through being the wonderful God HE is!

During that time i broke down and promised that i would never look at porn again...well guess what...i went to a couple sites, kinda glanced, that led to more, and led to more...where i finally looked for a little bit, and then trying to make it ok...i asked the wife(We had talked about it before) if she wanted to bring it into the bedroom(Thinking it my selfish, wicked human heart that would make it somewhat better...well we did for a little.

It seems that every time i slip with this, something bad happens in my life...im praying it wont this time, and hopefully that is not true, and my mind playing with me...

Just wanted to vent this and thank you all for reading...