Anyone here have hypochondria/anxiety/fibromyalgia?

[Coahline]

I am struggling in general with my faith lately, which is only making my anxiety and hypochondria worse. Much worse, because I don't feel like I can pray about it. Actually, sometimes I'm afraid that God is going to give me cancer or make one of my children chronically ill so that I have to face my worst fears. And on one hand I know that's very possible. On the other, I feel like God isn't like that. Like He isn't so "out to get me". I guess that's where the issues with my faith in general come in. I try to talk myself down from a panic attack but then I think about things like, "who do babies get cancer" and "why do women find out they have cancer during pregnancy?" Why doesn't God stop all that? If he won't stop a baby from getting cancer then what in the world will stop it from happening to me?? So why bother praying for my own health and the health of my family, will it do any good? I know that we can never try to guess what the grand plan is. I know that learning to trust God through all of this anxiety might be the big lesson. Or I may end up with cancer and that might be what I'm destined to go through. I just know that every time something aches, I'm afraid  that I'm terminally ill. Every time one of my kids has a lump, bump or bruise, I am sure they're going to die and I'm the worst mother ever. I am just exhausted and feel like I can't feel God through any of it. Maybe he's waiting for me to trust Him before I hear from Him? But I kind of really need to hear from Him so that I can try to trust Him more? You know? I'm sorry, I know I'm kind of rambling, but, I just had a panic attack. So.

[chosenone]

Do you have a good church, and are there people who you can go to for prayer and ministry? Fear is ruling you and robbing you of any peace.