How do i get closer?

[JeroboamOfGod]

first of all thanx to you guys reading this. If you dont mind first get to know me then you will read the story. Im 20 years old, born and raised in a christian family. still since i was 13 i had this, call it urge, of being like someone but my role wasnt jesus. i started being like a normal teenager, you know skip clases, saying bad words but still im going to church so im living a double life. since then ive been doing that. after all this years God is still with me and doing a lot of miracles but now im a college kid, i have a dream i want to make come true, i have this problem with adults movie stuff, plus my bad language havent change at all and not doing so well on college. almost finishing high school i went to church. really felt alone those days and said to God, i really need someone. i want someone to be with to be better person, so i can relay on her when the time is difficult. not saying with God isnt enough but those single men out there know the feeling. so i said i need a girl and i told him a specific girl lol dark haired, with glasses, white girl but it has to be christian. months before i broke up with a girl that wasnt that great so i really wanted to change my life. 2 months later i found this girl online pretty nice girl, we talked but i never reached to her only added her on FB but thats it. never saw something flashy bout her. then i met my gf at that time. we only lasted 5 months. in those 5 months i only talked with the other girl like hey how are you? havent talkeed in a while bla bla. but after i broke up with my gf i started talking with her and get to know her. still nothing flashy. so we kept talking like once in 3 months. then august 2013 came and i decided to really talk with her just normally to socialize. then i found out she is christian, plus with all the specification i said to God... yeah with glases haha. anyways since august ive been crazy bout her trying to know her better. i havent going out with her alone, just once and it was on a convention of christians so it wasnt a date. i really like her but she told me that right after she broke up with her ex God said to her i already have a BF for you. i hope it is me. anyways my point is that since then im even worst my life completely isnt a christian life still im my church drummer, a writer for a christian forum and some other stuff. im not the best chriistian but i really do my best. i respect the religion and defend it where ever i go. i really want to change but i dont want the girl to be my inspiration of changing. i want to change because i want to. this being said this girl knows that im a christian but knows some stuff i do not all but some. and i really want to get closer to her to gain her trust and maybe just maybe if i am who God has for her then ill give my best. guys believe me when i realized that she was exactly how i wanted a girl i laugh all day. she was right in front of me but for being so dumb i never saw her. well this is almost it. sorry my english isnt that good im from puerto rico and havent talked some real english since middle school ;) God Bless You guys

[chosenone]

Hi J

What exactly is it that you are asking? How you can get to know her better? How you can be a better Christian?

[JeroboamOfGod]

actually both, i dont wanna be a better christian for her.kinda feel like i dont deserve her but  still i feel like if i dont change i wont get that oportunity to get closer to her.

[chosenone]

Well the only way to get to know God or people is to spend more time with them.
You wont get to know this young lady unless you ask her out and talk to her and spend time with her.

[JeroboamOfGod]

well that is a problem actually, she always seems to have something to do, school works, even church stuff, not saying i dont believe her but i dont like to ask her out and you know she have to stop her stuff to make some time for me. and i even see some interest of her to know me but sometimes i feel like she just puts me on the friend zone lol if it exist of course

[chosenone]

well that is a problem actually, she always seems to have something to do, school works, even church stuff, not saying i dont believe her but i dont like to ask her out and you know she have to stop her stuff to make some time for me. and i even see some interest of her to know me but sometimes i feel like she just puts me on the friend zone lol if it exist of course

If she wants to see more of you she will make time. I am sure she isn't busy every evening and all weekend surely? She may be waiting for you to ask.If you dont ask you will never know.