Being an AB/DL

[Mra22]

Ok, here it goes.......I am 23 and still a virgin. I am saving myself for marriage. I had a rough childhood growing up including being beaten as a child....... I remember at times when I was younger I would for some reason be fascinated by diapers and I remember the times when I was younger I would even go as far to sneak and grab my baby brother's diapers and wear them. When I got a little older I opened up to one of my aunts (who has since gone on to be with Jesus) about this and she understood enough to be willing to buy me some diapers. Eventually my mother found out about this and would make me feel bad over it. So on and off throughout my years I've struggled with this, I even find pictures of grown women (18+ of course.....) beautiful wearing them and the thought of wearing them gets me aroused and the times when I do wear them I find that it relieves stress. The issue is that while I enjoy this lifestyle I struggle because I love GOD with all of my heart and I don't ever want to go to hell.......It's been a constant struggle with this and I don't understand why I'm like this and I keep telling GOD one minute I'll quit then I go back and tell HIM I'm not making promises. It's like I'm scared to ever fully let go of this.......I just don't know what to do :( and is it wrong to like looking at grown women wearing diapers ?

[JohnDB]

You already know this is wrong.   

How you twist this in your head to be innocent is also wrong.

There is but one goal in a Christian's mindset and diapers has nothing to do with it.

[johndoo]

This is a type of obsession.
Yes, it is tied to stress and relieving stress.
You could talk to a therapist about it.
It isn't hurting anyone else.  There is nothing in the Bible that  explicitly condems this although you may feel led to end it.
It is important to remember God's love for you whatever the issue or weakness.
God bless.

[Alan]

This fetish is likened to pornography, the fact that you are drawn to it by feeling a release from stress and simply from a point of arousal by your own participation, or by looking at women engaging in this act would indicate that you have lust issues that you must free yourself of. That said, there are many, many, methods in which a person will act upon lust but they all point back to Christ telling us NOT to bind ourselves to lust, for it is as sinful as the act itself.

[littleoldme]

Ok, here it goes.......I am 23 and still a virgin. I am saving myself for marriage. I had a rough childhood growing up including being beaten as a child....... I remember at times when I was younger I would for some reason be fascinated by diapers and I remember the times when I was younger I would even go as far to sneak and grab my baby brother's diapers and wear them. When I got a little older I opened up to one of my aunts (who has since gone on to be with Jesus) about this and she understood enough to be willing to buy me some diapers. Eventually my mother found out about this and would make me feel bad over it. So on and off throughout my years I've struggled with this, I even find pictures of grown women (18+ of course.....) beautiful wearing them and the thought of wearing them gets me aroused and the times when I do wear them I find that it relieves stress. The issue is that while I enjoy this lifestyle I struggle because I love GOD with all of my heart and I don't ever want to go to hell.......It's been a constant struggle with this and I don't understand why I'm like this and I keep telling GOD one minute I'll quit then I go back and tell HIM I'm not making promises. It's like I'm scared to ever fully let go of this.......I just don't know what to do :( and is it wrong to like looking at grown women wearing diapers ?

This reminds me of the time someone asked me what I wore on long bike rides. I said "Depends".

Not really, I can control my bladder better than all that, but if we live long enough we will get our chance to wear diapers. Hopefully later rather than sooner. In the meantime, I never pass up a chance to pee.

All of that aside, you should probably think about getting some counseling. Most of us are scared to death over the prospect of having to wear diapers.

[Red Baker]

Ok, here it goes.......I am 23 and still a virgin. I am saving myself for marriage.

That's a good thing, if truly your desire.

I had a rough childhood growing up including being beaten as a child......

"WHY" even mention this?  Is it so that we could feel sorry for what you are going to tell us?  Many of us could look into our past and make excuses for our sins and short comings.  Righteous and strong men, should not do this, that is: trying to get sympathy.     

I remember at times when I was younger I would for some reason be fascinated by diapers and I remember the times when I was younger I would even go as far to sneak and grab my baby brother's diapers and wear them. When I got a little older I opened up to one of my aunts (who has since gone on to be with Jesus) about this and she understood enough to be willing to buy me some diapers.

This is strange, and you should be seeking help from God to deliver you from such strange desires.   Sorry to tell you, but your aunt contribute to your strange behavior, instead of helping you. 

Eventually my mother found out about this and would make me feel bad over it.

Good for her.  She loved you more than your aunt did.  Leviticus 19:17

So on and off throughout my years I've struggled with this, I even find pictures of grown women (18+ of course.....) beautiful wearing them and the thought of wearing them gets me aroused

Are you truly being honest about 18 plus years?  I would think that that would be very uncommon.  Besides, how do you truly know if they are 18 and above?  Some very young girls look older than they really are.

and the times when I do wear them I find that it relieves stress.

It is another spirit within you that it is relieving, not your spirit. This is against nature.

I struggle because I love GOD with all of my heart and I don't ever want to go to hell

If you do indeed, then cry out to God to deliver you of this strange spirit that is within you.

It's like I'm scared to ever fully let go of this....

You have really not desire to be totally free of this strange spirit as of yet.

and is it wrong to like looking at grown women wearing diapers ?

Alan has answered this for you.

This fetish is likened to pornography, the fact that you are drawn to it by feeling a release from stress and simply from a point of arousal by your own participation, or by looking at women engaging in this act would indicate that you have lust issues that you must free yourself of.

May God be merciful to you and deliver you from this spirit.