Trying to stay positive

[Mike7377]

hello, right now i am going through one of the hardest times in my life, to tell a long story short, i am seperated and living with my parents. Let's just say, that my depression, years of taking my wife wrong, arguing and then yelling got worse. Things got so bad, that i am here while i try to get myself help for depression, and to change how i am, and also hoe i perceive things. I miss my wife and daughter who i have not seen in the last four weeks. I am really trying to stay positive about things, not let the negative feelings or thoughts about divorce come into my mind, i want to make this marriage work, after all we've been together 15 years being married, so if anyone can help me get through this as a friend, i would really appreciate it, i need friends noe.

[chosenone]

Mike what help have you had for the depression? Is there any reason why you havent seen your daughter for a month?

[Mike7377]

my wife doesn't want me around her, hasn't came over as she has been too busy, says she didn't know if she should be around me while i am trying to help myself, what i did was very traumatic for both me and them. All i know, is that i regret it deeply, i won't say as some would lash out at me as some are too quick to judge, but it had nothing to do with them, just that my anger got the best of me.

[MarkoRocko]

Mike, Jesus gives forgiveness seventy times seven.  As for people they are not so quick to forgive and move on.  I would say sign yourself for a christian support group or two or three that addresses your personal issue.
This demonstrates your intentions to get better, not with words but actions.

[chosenone]

Mike have you had medical advise and support for the depression?

[Mike7377]

yes, a actually seen a therapist for the third time today, next week my wife will come along, so that we can really talk things over. Also been seeing a gal for years who prescribes the meds and talks about how they are doing, but never did she tell me that maybe i should see a therapist. I am not upset at her because of that, but it would of been nice to know that years ago. I am definitely trying to change my ways, start good habits such as walking, reading ( two books already, starting a third ) , writing on an inspirational blog, really focusing my life and trusting in God. So, in a way what happened for me will make me stronger, just trying to reassure myself of that sometimes is hard. I am also going to see a counselor, and have actually thought of the support group thing, i think it would really help me. Also, pray for me that for once in my life i will follow through with managing my diabetes, checking my blood sugars and eating healthy. A big problem in my marriage is that i sat around and let her do it all because i felt lousy, no energy and i felt bad, but never corrected it. It would lead to arguments, getting upset at her, and just leaving myself feeling angry only to make things worse. So, i know i can do it! Like i started to think recently "If Jesus can carry that heavy cross, than I can climb any mountain, any obstacle that stands before me"

[chosenone]

MIke that all sounds very positive, keep it up. Its not too late, and God will always bring good out of bad. Sometimes we have to get right in the pit before we realize that we need to act, and losing your wife was probably what made you realize things needed to change. Get friends to pray for you as well.
Is there any way you could see your daughter? I am sure your parents would love to see her as well.