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[JesusisWatching1989]

I want to start off by saying I am encouraged I'm definitely not the only Christian man who has sexually struggled or still am struggling. Especially, maintaining fidelity in marriage. I'm not referring to a physical altercation or physically laying with another woman but my struggles are issues with integrity when alone and many men can relate and know exactly what I mean. I simply am downtrodden, embarrassed and so frustrated with my issues when left any type of freedom online. Being flirtatious with other women online has been a massive stumbling block for me and what's worse is this in the past has escalated to steamy conversations as well. I know this is purely lust and adultery that is attacking me and yet it seems like out of nowhere I feel this sexual impulses anyone else felt this before? Like out of nowhere you feel this intense sexual urges inside to flirt or whatnot I can't really explain it but I know it's wrong and not of God.

I've been married to my spouse for over four years now and I can honestly say that I do intensely love her, yet I'm so embarrassed by my struggles when alone. What's even more worse is the fact I've felt the Spirit's conviction and yet been stubborn to be obedient. I'm so tired of everything and I came here because a man explaining struggles to a woman can only help so much, even if it's a spouse. I wanted to reach out to some brothers in the Lord who can pray for me to be protected, healed, and strengthened to where everyday isn't simply a battlefield. I definitely believe in the power of confession and I lay myself transparent for others to read and see. I pray the Lord forgive me for my struggles with lust, my stubborn pride, and I lower myself to everyone so that I might be lifted up on eagles wings. I wanted to add that yes, I have indeed struggled with masturbation in the past and I'm not proud of that either. I feel like my Spirit is so brought low :(