My mother

[skater07]

My mom has gotten almost impossible to deal with anymore. She is so angry and unappreciative and I can't figure out how to please her. I feel like i'm walking on eggshells.

She is an alcohlic and has never been easy to live with at times. I can remember as a kid my dad would say she's just blowing off steam and it'll blow over. Now I don't even mention it as he'll just blow up and say how sick he is of her.

Lately she talks to herself constantly which wouldn't bother me as much but it's mostly in a sarcastic tone and complaining.

She will be ina good mood one minute and suddenly she makes remarks about how she hates where she lives and how she's old and tired.

I try to help where I can but apparently it's not enough... my mom complains about my dad watching old movies orif someone is in the bathroom. Just everything.

I always wished she'd get help... I just want to see her be saved I don't know how long she has left. I don't think she would want to go to my church...

I just want my old mom back at least, but I don't see it happening she get more and more insufferable. I wish I could help her... I used to be able to talk to her and calm her down...

I never tell family or people from church as it's embarasing and you know how pride is. Ionly told 1 close friend and they said she is just crazy and not worth worrying over.

I used to feel self pity but now just sadness and guilt. I feel like it's getting in the way of my relationship with God... I feel guilty going to church and leaving them at home suffering but they don't want religion.

It hurts alot. Can anyone relate?

I always wanted to see healing in my family, to be "normal". Even before I was a Christian, I felt there has to be a way, better than this, a way out. Now I feel like there's a wall and it's too late.

Can anyone relate, testimonies of grace and change?

I feel guilty, I know I am. I could be a jerk when I was younger to my mom. By God's grace I've gotten better I think, I don't lose my temper as much, I believe I am gentler. I don't know if she sees that. She said today she gets treated bad and yelled at. I asked her if I do that, she said no, thanks for being nice.

But I still feel I'm doing something wrong. I admit I don't take it to God as much as I should I just sit and think how impossible it is. I get very angry in my mind instead of praying. I've just gotten good at hiding it andholding my tongue.

[Pkbrother]

How long have you been saved and how old are you and are are you there only son or daughter.??

[chosenone]

Is there anyway that you can leave home? I don't know how old you are, but it sounds as if its time you became independent and flew the nest. That's what children are supposed to do.

In the end its your parents responsibility how they live their lives and only they can change that.

[grams]

I  believe  I was like that........ I picked up from my Pa  .... he was a alcoholic  and I

guess for a number of years I was and I  smoked.

I believe  I finally  felt like I was going to be going to hell if I kept this up.

So I told my self  stop it all......   I was Blessed  I guess I made it  out of all of that.
[my children were not  happy for me when I was that way. ]

I also told my self  I would not be getting sick any more  if I stopped drinking.
and that helped a great deal. 
It was not easy........ it was hard !   But I did it. 

I pray you can tell your Mom about this............

I drank for about 20 years .....  It was not easy, but now I feel so good I know GOD and JESUS.  And understand  my gift of salvation......and I am not going to hell any more.....

[grams]

I did not mention one  really  big thing that helped me to quite  also........!!!!!!!

My daughter  ,  came to me and said....

     DO  I HAVE TO KEEP KISSING YOU ?     Your mouth stinks !!!!!!!!!!!!

[MeMyself]

(((Hugs)))

I am sorry for your heartache.

What you are experiencing is very hard. I can point you in some directions to help you make sense of what is going on, what is truly at play, and how to protect your own heart and mind from being held captive by the dysfunction.
Desiring their  salvation is good, but all you can do is pray and that doesn't have to be done right in the middle of their drama and dysfunction.
You can pray best sometimes when you make a boundary and do it from afar.

With all sincerity, I say, God bless.